Sometimes you have to “lose everything” you’re holding onto out of fear to be open to receive what’s meant for you.
I watched this doc last night called “The Dawn Wall”. This rock climber wanted to scale this impossible wall in Yosemite & it took him almost 10 yrs to finally do it. And he fucking did it. But it took 100% devotion, faith, daily effort & a semi-obsessive refusal to give up.
So I woke up today & something I saw activated an old story of mine & I lost it.
I felt the weight of MY last 10 yrs since I left my “normal” life/security/comfort to follow my soul calling. But it’s been like climbing that 3000 ft rock wall.
I didn’t resist it. I gave myself a full 15 mins to go into a pity party. I let myself cry. I yelled that I’m tired of climbing this mountain. I’m lonely. I want someone to hold ME in my process. You name it, I probably spilled it this morning in my rant.
Then I took some deep breaths, showered it off & sat in meditation.
Remember social media is a SLIVER. You don’t see the nights (or years lol) of tears, the anxiety, the waves of self-doubt. Nobody posts that shit in full detail!
When a higher plan is unfolding & your entire world seems to keep falling apart, no matter how hard you try to hold on, the best thing to do is FUCKING SURRENDER.
It’s easy to get caught up in fear of “losing everything”, but the TRUTH IS when you’ve “lost it all”, you’ve made space. That’s the gold mine.
When you hit rock bottom (or you’ve had a few like me), if you’re self-aware, you realize what you were clinging to wasn’t good for you anyway. It was probably holding you back.
If your hands are full, how will you catch your blessings?
The mind wants to control. The SOUL wants u to be happy (even if it pans out differently than you expected- it usually does & for good reason).
We get what we need to evolve. Sometimes a big ass mountain or series of “losses”.
If ur here to create NEW EARTH, ur a rebel & us Renegades can feel lonely.
You’re not alone.
We’re in this together.
The Universe is benevolent & wants to bless u the fak up.
No giving up right before the harvest.
Keep the faith, fam. Love u.