Never in a million years did I think that I’d have anything to do with women’s groups, feminine healing, “sisterhood”, womb clearing, sexual healing or any of the other various aspects of heeding the call of the Rose path.
To be honest, although I was constantly encountering synchronicity, being called deeper into this healing work, I’ve had massive resistance at every juncture.
I’m more than mid-way through an intensive year-long rose mystery initiation – a small, intimate group of us moving thru this spiral of awakening to the Magdalene [Priestess] template held within (this is also why I haven’t been talking about it yet; now is still the time of self-honoring).
The path of the Priestess requires your full presence + willingness to go confront ALL illusory beliefs we hold around our own energies + power. Honoring it means showing up + showing up means integration – again + again.
All my childhood wounding, feeling separate from sisterhood by being excluded or ridiculed, is being integrated: the bullying from other young girls, the body shaming I experienced, the jealousy, + betrayals I experienced time +time again into adulthood – ALL storylines of victimhood/perpetrator are being released.
This has been an extremely sensitive point for me personally (I know so many women experience this), to allow myself to be supported emotionally in a circle of women (soul family) I’ve never physically met. The vulnerability is allowing for more opening, more self-acceptance, the ability to allow that kind of support into my life without immediately judging people + building unnecessary walls for self-defense. All these old trauma responses, keeping people at arm’s length (especially women) needed to come up to allow the true feminine energy to be integrated.
I’m not there yet, but it’s such a powerful process.
I have to go there myself before I can with integrity support other women.
Our individual healing, the union that takes place WITHIN, is our contribution to our ancestral line + to the planet.
I rejected the feminine part of me for so long, it became too lonely + painful, I knew it was time to do this. The call was too strong.
And Mary kept coming to me, whispering that it’s safe to be open, that it’s safe to love + be loved.
My experience of Mary/of this rose lineage of temple mysteries has been very internal. It’s come as visions, as dreams, as claircognizance that goes far beyond anything I can logically comprehend.
This path isn’t logical. It’s a heart-awakening.
It’s the remembrance of our true nature, an experience of the real sacred feminine most of us have never even come close to feeling – the Sophia Consciousness.
I look forward to sharing more with those of you that are feeling the call when it’s time. xx