This share comes from the most vulnerable part of me. I even sought out support starting last year, because I knew it was time to go ALL IN + show up for this work.
Apparently when my soul decided this was the lifetime of Priestess embodiment, she signed up for the FULL blockbuster experience.
I shared a story awhile back of a serendipitous meeting years back in Arizona with a very well-known Tantra teacher, who I met during a time of profound spiritual + sexual healing.
My soul has known for ages that the ancient practices are my path of service.
But I didn’t realize how deep the initiations would be.
As one my teachers said, “You can’t bring people to a place that you haven’t been.”
Intense initiations allow us to hold that kind of space for others to unfold.
Some people have a fairly broad-stroke version of what “sacred union” means to them.
For some of us, it runs much deeper. It was painful. And you must meet your Self, completely.
I’m speaking to those seeking real liberation; & in relationship.
I always said (in true Scorpio moon fashion):
“It’s easy to love the light. Show me your dark”.
I didn’t expect to receive it in such a… Complex package.
Our inner union IS essential.
However, doing this dance with another is the ultimate test.
It’s easy to love when things are copacetic or even when we’re alone.
Can u open-heartedly look at ALL your facets in the reflection of another, w/out sabotaging the love that wants to be birthed in THAT divinely-designed container?
I thought I could until it actually showed up, scars + all.
It was a LOT.
I’ve had to face my deepest shame & insecurities. I wanted to blame, make them “the more wounded one”, hold out for “less challenging”.
Honey, your soul knows what you need to open to the kind of love that’s ultimate freedom.
Then you’ll understand why EVERYTHING had to happen.
The aching heart + full surrender.
The years learning to be there for yourself.
A return to innocence.
The call to let the walls down.
The heart’s whisper to try again.
To meet your light + your dark with open arms.
To trust love.
To come home.